I KNOW I am a writer, and that I am SUPPOSED to be writing. I am just not convinced I am using the proper vehicle for my writing, or even choosing the proper topics. I lose time when I write, but then get panicky when I am done. At first, I believed it to be the whole “inner artist creates; inner critic destroys” syndrome that most artists are afflicted with but now I am not so sure. The books I am reading lately, and even my communications with friends, seem to point me in a different direction than the one in which I was following.
I am now reassessing where I am going to go with this whole adventure. Maybe start with a blank slate (again) and see if mapping my path might be a better way for me to go. Can’t be any worse than enduring bouts of panic just after quitting for the day.
My first step is to remove the business of writing from my life for a while. Maybe if I stop thinking about the commercial viability of what I am writing and concentrate on project completion, my project will get completed.
My second step is to put editing on the back burner, at least until the words “THE END” are written. Editing while writing is counterproductive, at least for me. I keep wanting to keep the big picture in mind (as well how the $$ of the business) and I beat myself up so much I never get past “Once upon a time on a dark and stormy night long, long ago…”